LOVE LOCKDOWN

6:34 AM Friday, April 30, 2010

why all the guys friends tat i had all left me and went to Other cute pretty gurls !!
cute and pretty gurls really itzzit tat important fOr guys ??
all left me go wit all the pretty cute gurl then when they kana rejected they will cOme back to
me.. WAD I M REALLY TO YOUU GUYS ??
a enterment gurl fOr yOuu guys or i m really eurs friend ??
wad yOu guys really treating me as ??
am i really tOo kind,tOo caring toward yOu guys tat why yOuu guys lyke tat treat me ??
wad i really wan is a true friends and nOrt a bastard friends or not a trueful friends !!
wad i really wan is a trueful bOy whO can win my heart and takin carez,sayang me lOving me 4evers and havin a lOng last relatiOnship wit him and !!
an lastly wad i wan is tat i hOpe my friends whO clOse to me wan to knOw this !!
i hOpe they really knOw whO i m .wad type of persOn ii m ??
i dun lyke people tat still dunnOe me well yet and jus comfirm my attitude is lyke this and sayin
this is my true colours !! my true colours is nOt lyke tat wad i can say that !!
and alsO my attitude is nOrt lyke tat tOo !! sO pls knOw me well and lOng then yOuu can
say and judge my attitude and my true colours okaz !!
wad gurl i m whO yOuu all wan knOw then find it eurself okaz haiis i dun wan say sO much ..
cOs i knOw wad ii say and dO yOuu alll wOnt believe cOs euu all need to really knOw me then
euu all will knOw who and wad type of gurl i m !! sO ya thanks !!
anw i miz alOt of peOple sey !!

the first persOn whO i really miz the very mOst is 'azree' my sayang !!
second persOn i miz the mOst is eiss !!
third persOn i miz alOt is my clOst friend adil !!

lastly i miz my brO's !!

takin carez ya brO and friends !!
lOvEyOuU guys !!

7:16 AM Thursday, April 29, 2010

First wad i wan tell euu is ...

- tats is nOrt my true colours !!
- and all this long ii was jus kidding and playin wit euu but somethime euu take it so serious !!
- when euu see gurl talkin to gurl all ii was jus distrubin euu tat all !!
- i dunnoe why euu and me jus cant take jOke wit each Other !!
each time we take joke wit each other we will fight all !! haiiis !!
- i dunnOe why eu can treat adeline and other sO gOod and dun alwaes disturb them until lyke
One shit why?? then for me euu alwaes disturb me until lyke one shit why ??
all this long i only got One question alwaes in my mind tat questiOn is why ???
anw the second paper i wrOte tat time is nOt i thrOw to euu is gab thrOw pls make thing clear !!

Second thig ii wan tell euu is ...

-all this long i was crying tOo nOt only euu cryin everydays !!
i saying the true !! ii everydays cried everysecond think about we two why ? why must we fight
wit each other everytime !! why ??
euu knOw, ii alwaes go my fb see the photo we use to take wit i cried tOo !!
my tears also the same jus so sudden drOp on my keyboard and comp table all !! haiis !!
sometime i wit euu guys i fight wit euu i actually want to cry out oreadi but i jus cOol myself
down,dun wan cry all !! haiis !!
sometime i didnt cried but my heart cried euu know tat ?? hais !!
even nOw i read eur blog i cired and even nOw i wrote all this in my blog i also cried.
whenever i wrote something at my blog i jus wanna cried !!
my tears is jus lyke rain keep dropping non stOp by each days we fight !!
i serious dunnow wad to said !
wad i can now is i jus really miz the fun tat we had last time when all of us went out together !!
nOw ii seriously had nth to said !!
my tears really jus lyke rain keep dropping non STOP !!!

5:36 AM

tOdaz didnt talk tO him at ALL !!!
haiis !! maybe me and him really not fated tO be anythings haiis !!
i wanted to try out alOt of way to talk tO euu and treating euu but i jus cant haiis !!
why haiis !!
diina iis sick and tired all of this things !!
lets dun talk abOut euu anymOre !!
anw ii m sick and tired of listening tO euu guys by say i lOvEyOuU i lyke euu Oreadi !!
euu all alwaes Onli knOe hOw to said but dun shOw tat euu all are really lOvE and lyke !!
euu all making me so headache euu all knOw tat haiis !!
each time euu guys said tat twO wOrd i felt tat all are jus fake wan ..
fake until dunnOe itzzit true or fake euu knOw tat haiis !!
and One mOre things i nOt a enterment fOr euu guys okaz !!
euu all really think tat i m a enterment fOr euu guys itzzit !!
i think i really toO over kind until euu guys are treating me lyke this haiis !!
euu said euu will alwaes be there fOr me but euu didnt haiis !!
anw diina nOw really having sick and having sight fever lOrrhs haiis !!
nOthing in my mind wanted tO say anymOre !! heehe !! haiis !!

7:37 AM Wednesday, April 28, 2010

tOdaz !!
tOdaz at expO ii fight wit him again !!
its make me sO sad again ...
haiis ...
after we fight after we qurral ..
i sit dOwn awhile then i went hOme cOs i knOw if i stay there we will start the fight and qurral all again .. which i really dun wish tO euu knOw ...
why we frOm start we can frOm friend tO brO and sis and use to be clOse tO but nOw ...
why we must frOm friend,sis,brO all then nOw end up becOme lyke tat ??
hate each Other fight qurral all !!
why why why ??
this questiOn i alwaes ask myself euu knOw tat ??
and i alwaes felt sO sad cOs hazri and gab are alwaes standing in between of us then will stOp
us by fighting qurral all !!
and ii seriously wan to stOp the stupid fight all euu knOw tat chucky ?
ii alwaes prOmise hazri nOrt tO fight wit euu all lorrhs but i jus cant ..
cOs i dunnOe why .. maybe wad euu alwaes to do me treating me the way is different frOm eur
belOved sister ba !! the way euu talk tO me the way yOuU treating me all ba haiis !!
why euu must alwaes make me sad,angry all why why why ??
euu tell me why can ???
ii really sick and tired of it nOw !!
ii really dun wan 1 by 1 suddenly jus lyke tat gOne withOut tell me anything euu knOw haiis !!
One persOn hurt me is oreadi enough..
i dun wan everybOdy and whO very clOse tO me wan alsO jus lyke tat hurt me !!
haiis !! jus hOpe euu totally seeriously knOw wad i thinking and talking about haiis !!

takin carez everybOdy !!
gtg bye !!
lOve Ya !!

4:57 AM Tuesday, April 27, 2010

tOday when to skoOl late !!
late fOr claSS again haiis ...
ii nOw adays really nO much mOod tO gO anywhere Or dO wadever things or talk wadever
things ..cOs ii really felt sO sad !!
first thing ii sad of cOurse i alwaes fight wit rafi nOn stOp !!
everyday fight everydays qurral nOn stOp tOo !!
ii dunnOe when then we can really dun fight all !!
ii jus nOw slacking at expO awhile with hazri and rafi, suddenly hazri say he dun wan go class all
dun wan go skoOl all, tat really make me so sad !!
tO me they are my mOst impOrtant Onces tO me ..
they are euu knOw ? euu all dunnOe ..
but i knOw wadever i say wadever hOw i feel they wOnt knOw cOs they are nOt me !!
they wOnt really knOw hOw ii feel wad my feeling without them in skOol outside skOol all
haii !! whenever i talk to them about the debar thing i will cry !!
sometime i really jus felt lyke cry out and let go my tears as many as i can !!!
haiis !!
second things ii sad off course ii really dun wan lOose euu all this type friends and abg !!
i oreadi lOst alOt of friends who use tO be wit us a members !!
nOw wad happen ? all gOne gOt gurlfriend/bOyfriend wan all gOne MIA dun have gurlfriend/bOyfriend wan gO bulid their Own wOrld then nOw only left euu guys wit me !!
sO if i loOse euu all then wad i had left, i had left nothing euu knOw tat !!
i Onces have a clOse friend adil use tO be clOse wit me then end up wad happen ?
end up gOt gurlfriend then how i can be clOse wit him, i cant sO i let gO i tOld him i wOnt be sO
clOse wit him anymOre cOs ii dun wan his gurlfriend luhhs mizunderstandiing us ..
then anOther wan lerrhs !!
kahii, dunnOe wad happen arhhs suddenly avoiding me fOr nO reasOn !
avoiding me during holiday the last week of holiday tat time !! sO sudden !!
didnt kNow he was avoiding me during the holiday i tOt he was MIA but ii m wrOng !!
being sO wOrry abOut him tat time hOpe faster reOpen skOol can see him but end up first day
reOpen skOol he saw me he hide and cOver his face all !! didnt even say hi or smile at me !!
then frOm tat On i knOw he was avoiding me !! haiis !!
haiis !! at first tOt tat he nOt tat type of bad guys tat i knOw be4 but end up, wad i tot is wrOng
tOtally wrOng !!
but nvm !! ii m okaz wit it heehe !! wads come around, wads go around !!! heehe !!
wads my friends all told me are true !!
sO i jus hOping my friend wiill change their mind !!

diina !!
takin carez ...

2:57 AM Friday, April 23, 2010

my pOst iis back heehe !!
yOo !!
ii m so sad !!
hOw ??
ii dun wish tO see my friendS kana debar !!
and ii alsO dun wish tO see my abg"bear"
tO kana debar !!
ii really felt so sad euu knOw bear ii jus felt lyke crying euu knOe !!
but i dun think euu knOe hOw ii feel rite now !!
maybe euu knOe maybe euu dunnOe hmm !!
haiis !! hOpe euu can think properly !!
Ouhhs ya nOrtt Only bear !!
gab alsO haiis !!
aiya ii nOw seriously dunnOe wad should ii say !!
ii jus hOpe euu twO wOnt kana debar !!
i dun wan see my twO kOrkOr kana debar ii really dun WAN !!!!
II DUN WAN !!!!
haiis !!
if really kana debar i hOpe is jus a dream tat all ...
haiis !!
ii nOw super tired dunnOe wan to say Or think abOut it and i nOw jus really felt like slippin nOw
cant tahan heehe !!
okaz luhhs ii think i go slip first !!
diina giler signing off !!
takin carez everybody !!!
i wan Zzzzzz !!! heeehe !!
bubbye !!
lOvEyyOuU guys !!
gd nithez !!